Can you by any chance , at this moment , mention all the things you've wanted to get before but you was so broke to have, all the relationships that you had but were broken at some point along the way , all the childhood dreams that changed after growing up . Can you remember , all the emotions you couldn't confess because you wasn't brave enough to admit them . Can you name all the people who left and no longer exist in your life now.
Yes you remember , yes you can mention names , places and some memories . But don't you feel that you are missing the most important thing ?
Details , don't you believe that you no longer remember details . Weird isn't it ?
Indeed it's weird how at some point in the past , you wanted some things so bad , you tried to make it happen and you felt sad that it wasn't meant to be . But then time happened to exist , happened to hit the corners of your life . You started losing interest little by little . The flame that used to burn inside goes out , your heart got colder , you started forgetting faces , smells ,textures and even the reasons that made you crave it. . How should this be called ungratefulness, moving on or healing ?
Are you really ungrateful because you no longer care about people and things that used to matter to you so much . Did you really move on while you haven't even get answers of all your questions you had. Have you really healed of all those emotions .
I know you can't answer , because deep inside , you know and you really feel that there's that little thing remaining . Maybe , an appearence of a cetain face would revive it or passing by a cetain place , would push you to try and want it again . But as long as nothing of those will happen , time will keep that little deep thing asleep . Because time doesn't make you an ungrateful person , or let you move on nor heals you. Time simply makes you enjoy your delusion .
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